Pain of Remembrance

endless screams
pleading for silence
why can’t I forget?
the heat of his breath sickens me
eyes glaring red daggers
why can’t they see?
I avert my eyes
a smile never touches my lips
tears steadily pouring down my cheeks
self-esteem at rock bottom
unable to tell
who would believe?
no one sees me
no one hears me
no one cares
his dark shadow hovers
emotions suffocating
his weight pressing me down
arms like steal bands constraining me
questioning glances without understanding
help out of reach
death is a comfort I lack
I wish I could tell
I don’t want to be this person
why me?
why anyone?
I wish I could forget