Cruelty

Fearing men and their cruelty
Despising them for taking what is not theirs to take
Making you feel inferior
Making you feel weak
Like you have no choice
Sickened by the pedophiles
The rapists
Men who only want to make you feel powerless
I fear men
But I hate them more
Hate them for making me trust them
And then betraying me
Making me fall in love with them
And then taking everything from me
Stripping you bare
Leaving you battered and bruised
Breaking you down
And stomping on the pieces that once resembled you
Hatred burns through you
Making you hate your own skin
The face that looks back at you in the mirror
You want to wash off the sickness
The unwanted touch
Unwanted invasion into your mind and body
Hate fills you up and spills from your open mouth
Keeping the good men at a distance
While the others smell your fear and come closer to have a taste
You hate yourself for not doing more to stop them
For keeping the pain a secret
It rips you open and tears you apart
Exposing your insides for all to see
But you push the pain and the revulsion down
Keeping it buried within yourself
Keeping you alive for the moment
Living every day minute by minute
Hoping you’ll forget
But knowing you won’t